I'm sorry I'm late.. I'm doing my half best

I’m sorry I’m late.. I’m doing my half best

I feel like I have been slacking in areas in my life that are usually my top priorities. It’s like I am giving everything my half best. My blog has been silent for far too long, rescue has been pushed to the sidelines and I only have time to look at it when someone asks for help, and some of my best friends and I have been far too silent lately. I feel my dogs wanting more time outside now that the weather is warming up, which means, they require my time to spend taking them on walks and adventures. I am also trying to focus on getting healthy with working out, and meal prepping, which has taken up a lot of my time! Also, I am trying to excel in my career and when you want to move up in any position, you spend more than 8 hours working for your goals!

I think I have been in a weird funk lately because I am turning 26 shortly.. I think back to when I was 18, and I thought I would have more of my shit together by 26.. You know, just the normal stuff, a strong healthy relationship possibly marriage, financial security, and being higher up in my career.. Yet I am single, living paycheck to paycheck, and in the same job I have been for 4 years! I look back on the past 8 years of my life, and wonder what the heck happened. Where has the time gone, and what do I have to show for it?!

Yes, I can show my house.. Yes, I can show some new experiences such as travelling.. Yes, I can show new friends and loving people around me.. But most importantly, I can show Self Growth! I’m not the same person I was when I was 18, and deep down I know if I was where I thought I would be at 26, I don’t think I would be as at peace with myself as a person as I am today. I enjoy my own company, I don’t depend on anyone but myself to get through tough times, and I have been strong enough to walk away from people who didn’t have good intentions towards me. To put simply, I am a badass, and I forgot about that when I compare myself to the picture I had in my head at 18.

So here is to everyone doing their HALF best lately!